i wish i have something profound
to say, you know
i really do
after the silence came through
expected for the worse
weaved myself a net to
catch me when if i do fall
and i see myself falling arleady
but you
oh, you're better than that
you cut through the net
through me
blood everywhere
drying
that deep dark reddish nightmare
has been quieted down
even my own voice cannot
fill up the hollow
there is no vibration
lifeless in my palm
staring back at me reflecting
my foolishness in trusting
or even dare to dream of the impossible
but you were so special
you were
so clean
i just want to let you
cleanse my achened soul
the broken
the tainted
you were baptized with much
innocence and happiness
words i don't even dare to, secretly
mutter in my sleep
you were so great
nothing none nada
compare to you the world is grey
grey
like the color
of lifelessness of boredom of
process of death
you face is turning to that
in my head
the smile cracks
thousand pieces like
crushed marble statues
thte thunder force came from you
"have hope" says the choir
how and where and just ...
i'm on my knees now
grasping onto that
last ray of light
and hold it close to close to me
but i cannot help but
freeze from the inside
and i'm killing you
slowly
in my head