im finally calmed down now,but still...stressed out by all the shit happened btw us...i have no idea wut my life should be like now,n wut's gonna happen next.i gave up myself at the moment i left under your sight.i think everythin' btw us is over now...all da memories we had before, ends up with the hatred within you.i'll respect you.All the wounds within you,will be healed by time...so does mine.... you are the whole world that i cared abt,the one that i cried for, worried for,n the one that i can die for. but...it doesnt matter you anymore. look back to the month,it wasnt 驚天動地or 滄海桑田...the world wont stop even a second for us. if i could turn the hand of time back,i dunno if i would choose to let you walk into my life. bc all the memories we had...throu' the time,just became the most painful wound in your heart...if i knew that my love of you would brin' you so much pressure,makes you regret,n broke your heart...then i would probably choose to walk away... baby...i dunno how many times i said this will be the last time to call you in this way.i know i've alreadi lost the chance to call you baby again... i just want you to know,i never regret to love you, althou' there's more pain than happiness in my memories...all i regret is that, my appearin' in your life,makes you sad...n hurt... how many time can i say sorry to you to make you feel better... i know you're not gonna forgive me,or even just give me a lil bit of trust... but i'd hope you to know that,i always care,n i never lied to you a single word... i cant even concentrate for one singel prayer now... i dunno which path Lord gonna lead me to the next stage of my life.but maybe,all these experience of failure, is just a lesson of my life... let me know how the world is like,all the memories i experienced when i was a kid,n when i turned into a woman...i realized the cruel reality,how it makes a innocent kid,turns to a thoughtful considerate adult...i should be thankful that i had the chance to experience all i've been through.it is wut bulit up the realistic me now. some ppl are fighting over power,money, n authority for their whole life,i should be gratified to have been favored by luck just to fight for my own happiness... love...is the hardest lesson...no one can study it completely... i am lucky enough to have the chance,to find someone in this vast crowd of ppl,that loves me,truely with his heart,n study this lesson with me...thank you baby...i've learned alot... if i have a chance to choose to trust you or not,i'll never regret that,i'll trust you with my whole heart...i'd rather die,than not to trust you.thank you again for walkin' into my life,all the life we shared...will be saved in the depth of my heart.sorry again for all the pain i brought to you... if i could,i realli hope that i could suffer all of it for you... you will never know, how much it hurts deep inside my heart when i see you suffer all the sorrow... "you do deserve a better life...you made the right decision...i have to forgive you when i just think of you...because i love you too much..."
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